Work

Okay so I have had an emotional 2 weeks. I do not feel that I am receiving the recognition that I deserve at my job. I know I should be worried about something so trivial. However I spend about a 1/3 of my day working so it is a big part of my life. That being said I have been thinking about why this is so important to me. I know that I could look at it as a ways to an end and deal with it that way. However I am not like that, I really believe in the things I get involved in. Case in point, if someone were to make disparaging comments about my church, I would get angry. I would because I take ownership. Now I have worked there for about 9 years, and this is not the first time this has happened and I am sure that it will not be the last. What I do know is the comment my boss (who I like) made is the problem. "well, you work in a support role and the people in this group do not see all the good things that you are doing they just remember when something did not work". What the..., I asked him "how is that fair". I should have gone on to point out that each release when installed at a store creates a problem that requires a fix for that program or a update for another.

What has become clear to me over the last few hours is this; why am I looking for validation from a job? I know that sounds simplistic and trite, but really, how much does this job matter in the grand scheme of things. I know that I spend a 1/3 of my day there but why do I spend that much time there? To provide for my loving and caring wife, for my child who is so beautiful, and to support my church who is doing God's work here in Minneapolis. That is it. Sure it is fun when my boss tells me that I should spend the budget, who wouldn't want to order 80 workstations at a time?

Clearly I have to focus on the things that matter and maybe this is God's way of saying, you are done there, I have something so much better in mind for you.

movie time

Last night my wife and I went to the movie at church, we saw Narnia. I was a good time to just sit and watch a movie with friends. I am glad though that the pastor turned on the air conditioning. It was about 80 degrees in there. Not much else other then there is a weird guy that showed up and proceeded to stare at all the women that were there.

This is my beautiful daughter. We are in the process of adopting her. I cannot tell you how much I love her and cannot live without her.

Must update more

Okay since my last post I have had surgery on my shoulder and find that typing is not something I could do very well until now. So I think that I will start including a "What has this experience taught me" segment to each post that talks about an experience.

Shoulder surgery - What has this taught me

1. Anesthesia mixed with Fentanyl(they gave it to me), and a nerve block on my right arm are all good

2. All doctors are not the same but until a relationship is established they do not trust you to tell them the truth. Must be part of medical training

3. Learn to do things with the other arm. I cannot tell you how frustrating trips to the bathroom and eating are.

4. If you do not have a support system to help you for about 2 weeks you are screwed. My wife was there above and beyond the call (not with the bathroom thing) so many times.

5. Stay out of work for 2 weeks even if you are a computer nerd like me. Slowly during the second week start using your computer 1 to 3 hours a day.

6. Learn how to ask for help and be gracious when it is offered.

7. For about 5 to 6 weeks do not try to play battlefield 2. Trust me or your new friend will be ice and painkillers.

8. Learn how to sleep upright or in different positions. I sleep about 3 hours average a night because I did not do this.

9. Curb eating. I am not gaining weight but I am losing any tone that I had in my body. I am in shape for those that know me. ROUND IS A SHAPE! :)

10. For the special people that have helped you find a way to thank them that shows your love for them.